Dear Younger Me,
How’re you? Well, I already know the answer to that. You were having a rough time. Well, I’ll be telling you some things but not everything as there are some things you will learn along the way of your life.
First things first, it’s perfectly normal and understandable that you are not able to connect with the other children. You are not a child, you are an adult stuck in a child’s body. You have dissociative identity disorder and please seek help as soon as possible.
And also, it’s okay to cry. It’s okay that you have a hard time expressing yourself. You were made to repress emotion but that doesn’t mean that is what you have to do. Love yourself and let yourself have a break. You need to take care of yourself first before you even consider helping others.
I know it’s hard being Catholic and also asexual. Oh, yeah asexuality is a thing as well! That’s when you don’t find people sexually attractive, and that’s completely okay.
Also, you are not perfect. You are a problematic system leader. Just learn from other alters and let yourself learn. You are a selfish little bitch who only cares about your reputation. Sort out your priorities and do your job. Jason is a good guy who has good intentions so listen to him. Please keep your sisterly relationship with Emma because you will sure as hell regret it.
Now, everything will be okay in the end. You do a lot of work everyday and every hour. It will all pay off. We got help for our DID and you are now able to switch at will. Allanah and our host is actually doing really well! Ana is recovering from her anorexia.
You got a hand of help with the other alters to help with your trichotillomania. I know! Other people helping you? It’s a surprise but people actually do care about you. I know, who knew? You will learn that people will love you unconditionally.
Overall, I hope you are happy. I promise everything will work out in the end. You will be okay.
Sincerely,
Christina
